It has been entirely too long. Not quite sure if I’ve decided to get back on my Tumblr game. If I do, expect lots of West Wing, I’m obsessed.
Not sure who this is, I have a guess though. If I am right, I’m sorry we’ve drifted apart so much. In any case, thanks a lot.
| — | Chuck Palahniuk (via rusol) |
When I actually look inside myself, I realize how bad of a person I actually am. Times past sometimes seem so golden. The present is almost always overwhelming. The things I miss, I miss for the wrong reasons. I am not a self-sustaining being. I cannot maintain my own sanity. I tick right on away like it’s normal. You meant a lot to me. You meant nothing. I used you. You used me. Love does not exist. I love you dearly. I cannot make decisions. I aim to please. I am a selfish shell of a person. I hurt people. I help those I can. Everything I do right, I do for the wrong reasons. By most moral standards, I am terrible. Self-centered does not even begin to describe the issue. Sometimes this bothers me. Other times I am perfectly content.
I don’t know if I have ever been technically cheated on, but the before mentioned girl did lie to me for a month about a guy she was seeing when I thought we were trying to get back together.
Ok, so I’m going to go ahead and say, even though I don’t think my feelings for her were as strong as they were for my most recent ex, I think I fell hardest for a girl named Lauren who I dated all of Sophomore year. I met her in a backyard block party by the bar…no but seriously. She was my friend’s cousin, and I met her in his backyard at his birthday party.
2. Hmmmmm, so many drunk stories I can tell. The best are the stories you get told about yourself the next day, so on that note. This one time, I was blacked out pretty hard and apparently on the way back in a friend of mine was talking about how she wanted to get her nipples pierced, and my immediate reply was, “not if I impregnate you first.”
4. Hmm, last person I kissed. She is, to me, quite gorgeous, she can be a handful at times, but I like her nonetheless.
16. Turn ons. Well, I’ve always been a sucker for a girl who can keep up with me in a conversation. Intelligence is the sexiest thing to me. Next biggest turn on is something new to me. For some reason, a girl who can take a respectable bong rip is simply too much for me to resist.

